Tonight and tomorrow I will work on my new web sites. I was going to call my homepage "Stacy's House," or something like that, but the page is not just about my name. It's about me, and not naming everything after me. I did think of a nifty logo for "Stacy's House" I may use, but as a signature. I want the homepage to be original and raw. Y'know get the best of me in there, and let you know it's all good.

The rain subsided, and I went to lunch. Downtown floods so easily, and wcars slached water all over the side walk. If they wern't racing through the water, it wouldn't be so bad, but those bastards did, and I nearly got soaked several times.

I got some nachos, and a Sprite, and called that an evening. I tried out the Yahoo radio. The one where you customise the music. My taste is so eclectic, that I didn't know half the selections the radio was selecting for me. I got over that real fast. LOL

I've written three times today. That's a great thing. I feel great when i write, and I like that feeling.

Song of the Evening: Fall by Cree Summer. Why: It's a rock flavored tune that I like. It also represents my ecleticism well.

Thought of the Evening: Do not question everything. Somethings must be accepted as is.

Be well people, be well.

It looks ugly outside. There's a storm on the horizon. It looks so dark outside, I'd swear it was 9:00 PM already. I hate it when a storm brews, and I'm not home. It makes me a little nervous, 'cause a lot of people drive poorly in the rain. They speed like crazy. Caution gets thrown to the wind.

I got an offer for an interview. Don't want to jinx it, and I have yet to confirm the date, but needless to say it would allow me to take my late night classes if the opportunity presents itself. Also more pay would be fine, if possible. I'm praying for success.

Did some data entry for today. I mainly went over other people's work, as someone haphazzardly placed the info in the system. I checke and redid the info when necessary. it wasn't so bad. I liked it.

I wanted to buy Brandy's new CD, but decide to put that money elsewhgere. I may purchase a few tunes from itunes later next week, if time and money permits.

Song of the Evening: Friend of Mine by Kelly Price. I love to hear both the album and R. Kelly remix. Bad friends are the worst, and hearing songs about them is even better.

Peace y'all.

Hello,

I'm in class. I like to take this time to reflect on the day. It's soooo early. I'm going to go home soon. I may go to sleep. While yesterday, I avoided caffine, I still didn't get much sleep. That's a shame. I need a latte. It'll keep me awake. Turned in my homework assignment for today, which I did last night. Filled my car with gass today. I spent $15.05, but it's full. It should last me a week or so. Eveybody else pays like much much more. I guess their tank is huge.

Song of the Morning: This Love by Maroon 5. Why: I listened to it on the raido on my way to class. It was a good song to drive to.

People are paying me compliments on my shirt and hat today. Makes me feel good. I have a Superman logo on my shirt. Guess that makes me the man. LOL. Somebody didn't like the fact that I got comments, and started hating, and quite frankly it turned me off. I'm getting over that. I should get some more cool shirts, and let them hate harder. If I think about it what should I do anything different from today. I need to treat myself better than before.

I have decided that i should not allow other factors in life to constrain me. This means taking control of my life, time, and energies. I want to be able to project the right amount of energies into my talents. There should be no excuses, no explanations or justifications to others about what I do.

In the past I felt a need to please others, and I'm not happy. I'd like to get to a point where my happiness and life come first, and not last. I getting there.

Of course things don't happen overnight, and if I rememeber to do things the right way (put my needs and well-being first), then I can't possibly fail. It shall all work itself out, if I maintain the right course.

I'm developing two new websites. The first is my official home site. This site will contain photos, poetry, and liks galore. LOL. I want it to be my special site. The one I would want to design if I went to a professional and asked them to work on it.

The second will be a labor of love. It's a site dedicated to fine art. The details are still in the wash, but my background in art is my first love.

Song of the Day: Talk About Love by Brandy. It is really a cool song, and is right for the summer. If the opportunity presents itself, I'll purchase her new CD.

My Mom and Grandmother just had birthdays this week-end. I know they're happy. My got herslef a new counter top stove to celebrate her victory. LOL. I'm so proud of her. It was what she needed to complete her kitchen.

Talked with someone who was having some obcession/stalking problms. I know a little about people who don't know how to respect boundaries. They force you to be more agressive in responses. You can't be nice to some people, 'cause they seem to want to run all over you.

Have to tell my friend she's being to nice to the obcessed person. Let them know showing up on the job is not healthy at all. Respect is key to all friendships.

Album of the Week: Belly of the Sun, by Cassandra Wilson. While this moves me out of R & B, and into jazz, we can all use a change of pace, and Wilson's music is great, and has a mellower vibe. Also the live instruments are so cool to hear.

Where to start today. I have freinds problems. One friend is not speaking to the rest, and creating a rift in our group. Needless to say some are taking it more personal than others. That's to be expected. It's pretty upsetting to see someone you know going through things, and they won't let you in at all. What's the deal with that?

Attempted to use the campus computer lab , but their Dreamweaver software kept crashing. I really went there because their computers have much more power than my laptop, but I might as well as stayed home. I did get to talk to a friend who had this crazy story of someone stalking someone else. I know the person doing the harrassing. It will get worse, that I know.

I attempted to listen to the "Damita Jo" cd a friend loaned me. I couldn't get into it. It's not Janet's best. Oh well. It doesn't make album of the week. LOL

Song of the day: My choice is "Golden Boys" by Res. If you listen to the lyrics, she sounds so disillusioned by people in high places. The beat kicks too.

Yesterday I didn't wear a t-shirt under my main shirt. I felt funny, like I was walking around with no undies on. LOL. I know that may sound silly, but I am used to an undershirt beneath the shirt. It felt naughty, almost. I'm so old-fashioned. LOLOL!!!! I'll get myself out of that.

I'm still trying to figure out a solution to my class scheldue. It's not so successful. The only salvageable news is that I'll be done with the core classes this semester, and I may take my QuarkExpress class sooner.

The Library's louder than usual, for the summer that is. It's ok.

Song of the Day: Angel in Disguise by Brandy. Why? It's what's playing in my car.

I didn't write yesterday. I'm such a slacker. I know I'm writing today. LOL. Nonethelss the day was filled with some pretty blah moments and I had cabbage and rice on my break as food. I'm outta cash this week, so whatever's home will have to do for me. These weeks can be limiting, when the funds are low. A friend gave me an apple. I'll snack on that later. I've also been munching on some crackers. I can't say I'm starving, or hungry lol. I got what I needed. :-)

Song of the Day: Golden Boys by Res. Why, 'cause The lyrics are deeper than I thought, and the beat brings it on home.

I didn't write yesterday. I was real lazy. So lazy that I didn't do much of anything constructive. I am fustrated still that the hours for Fall semseter's classes are late in the evening. I'm at the mercy of somebody playing with the admin system. LOL. I'm very pissed.

This is a skimpy post, and I don't feel muck like writing anything, but I musn't miss two days, 'cause that's when it becomes three, four and five days. Such a sad cycle of nothiness. I did want to work on a writing project, and may do so later in the evening.

Song of the Day: I did have something to write about today. "The Beautiful Ones" by Prince. Why, cause it's on heavy rotation on my iTunes, and old school Prince is great Prince.

I'm working on my portfolio web page. I wanted a link to my blogg, but I forgot the address. Since I had to visit my sitre, I might as well write something. Cooked stir-fdry today. It didn't get as involved as I thought. It was neat, (mostly) clean, and painless. I love that in a meal. I cooked enough for two days, so we'll see how long it lasts.

For breakfast I ate the last two slices of leftover pizza. It was good. The crust was a little tough as I mic'ed it too long. Later on I have to get my cat some food, as he is already out of the bag I bought a couple of weeks ago.

It's obnoxiously hot outside, but I gotta get stuff done, then I gotta take some asprin 'cause my head's hurtin' somthing fierce.

Chill, Y'all

Album of the Week: "Secrets" By Toni Braxton. Why? Because it's her best work. There are a lot of great songs on there, and the way I'm playing the CD, you'd think I never heard the songs before. LOL. Seriously, Toni lays down a lot of hot tracks on this CD, and she has a great voice. The qualty of music, lyrics, and voice are the best.

What's up all. I had the best sleep last night. I actually got to sleep LATE. Can you beleive it? I had a day to sleep until 11:00 AM. I'm so satisfied. LOL I also started writing ideas for a new story i can't tell y'all 'bout 'cause I really just have random thoughts about. If I ever work it out, I'll share.

Tomorrow I have an early class, but I'll go to bed early tonight to offset that miserable I don't wanna get outta bed feelings I get in the morning. I just hate rolling out of bed. I'm still a night person.

Song of the Day: "Naughty Girl" By Beyonce. It has the right beat to pump in my ride. Love to hear it.

I had a topic, but then I forgot it while driving aroud. LOL

Got a haircut today. Boy did I need it. My hair looked a mess. LOL. My beard was outta control. It got cut proper, and looks good. I love that.

Song of the day: "Let It Flow" by Toni Braxton, cause the song says what I need to hear, which is to let all the negative pass me by.

Once again, I feel lazy, which means I must write something. LOL Amazing how inspiration can change at certian moments.

They've posted the hours for fall classes. Don't you know every class I want is in the evenings. I'm a little saddned by this, since I wanted all day classes, it would work well with my evening job. So now I have to find a way to work with this, so I can make some money, and advance my edu. I feel so conflicted. That sucks.

I paid for my cat to get his shots and a bath. I paid waaaaay too much money. If he wasn't loved, I wouldn't do it, so I don't mind doing it, but it did put a dent in my wallet. Fortunately, I have most of my bills paid already, and one heafty car note. Can't do without the ride, especially sinces it's a good ride. LOL.

Have you noticed that some people settle for less,never hoping to rise above their current situation? After hearing some people say how we should be grateful to have a job, and more along the same lines. What I got from that was that if I'm working a dead-end job, I should be happy with that. If I don't like the relationship I'm in, I should be happy I have someone I'm with. What is that?

Nowhere did anyone mention that there is room for improvement. That you don't have to settle. Use the dead end job as a stepping stone. If the relationship is not healthy, then leave. I don't want to have crumbs on the table, I want a whole dinner. I don't have a fixed "place" at the bottom of the barrell. I should be rising to the top.

My goal is to remember that I must improve my living and finical status. I will grow, I shall rise, and take my place as a leader, not a follower. We gotta do for ourselves, 'cause too many people are treating us like we're not supposed to have feelings or desire.

Besides, why waste God given talent and drive.

Saw Terminator 3 last night. It was ok. The audi for my HBO is horrible though. Why am I paying for this thing if tt doesn't work?

I'm getting hungry. What to make for dinner, I wonder. I'll think about it more.

Yesterday me and my friends were talking about people in sucky relationships. we've come to the realization that it's all about denial, and beleiving that things will be different for someone dating an asshole. Go figure. Little bits of life, eh.

I don't wanna write, which means I have to write at least five sentences. I have some ideas for a project, which I have been hand writing, and I have homework that needs to be completed. As I write this, I'm trying to not look at the keys. It's tricky, but I can do this. LOL. Man you just gotta love praticing, cause it can only make me better.

I wrote this journal entry.

My boss just shushed us. LOL. Now I have to find something quiet to do. Namely I decide that it was time for today's entry. Aftewords during lunch I can sing "Swing Low, Sweet Chariot." It may take the edge off of massa's commands.

I woke up the morning with my eye burning. I got allergies bad this week. Man, it was hurting something crazy. My intention was to call my professor, so I could get her help on a particular topic. I found out my e-mail never reached her, so I sent it again. e-mails are crazy sometimes, aren't they. I get they get lost like some letters do in the mail.

I tried the "Java Chip" at Starbucks today. Not my usual vanilla latte, but it's different. I've been doing coffee all this week. Better slow it down 'fore I become wired and nervous. All I need to be is a mess by tomorrow.

I'm going to have Chinese for lunch, or at least that what I'm thinking about. General Tso's chicken from Chopsticks is the best I've had. Wore my straw hat today. People love this hat. i get the best reaction from thius hat. I should get my hair cut, so I can stop wearing hats all day. Straw is more comrotable, but useless when it rains, like it did an hour ago.

I wasn't going to write today, since I have so tired, but after sufin' the net a little, I decided to get off my lazy duff and write something. I should forewarn that I may skip Fridays, and some Saturdays for personal reasons. Really, on those days if I touch the computer and go online, I just may have to write, but on those days I'm resting from work and classes. I don't wanna see a damn machine.

Yesterday, a co-worker said she had to go home 'cause she left her dog in the house. I suppose if a rainbow had hit the sky she might have to leave us today. Alas, no rainbow, no retreat.

The libray is obnoxiously silent. It's too quiet. The only real sound I hear is the tapping of the keys. I wondering if I'm typing too loud for the patrons? Circulation is almost capable of running itself when it's this inactive. All I do is answer questions about times open/close, and computer lab locations. Phone hasn't rung in a while. I take it that's good.

Took a test today in my computer graphics class. I still think multiple choice is a bad way to desmostrate knowledge of software. Weshould have projects to complete, and be judged on that, but I got an "A," so I shan't bitch too much about that.

I' m at home resting my nevers before I go to work. Spoke to a friend last night. She was doing fine. I was happy to get in touch with her, since I hadn't seen her in a while, and I like talking with her. Have another project to work on, so I need to get on the stick about it. We'll see.

It's me again. Went to dinner with my family yesterday. We went to a stakehouse. It was sooooo good. LOL. I was stuffed. Of course, I ordered steak. I got a big one. Man, I enjoyed myself. I won't do that for a while. LOL

When coming from work, yesterday, I saw the damnedest thing. This guy was on the street with an erection going. He looked like he was going to pop outta his pants. I suppose it's pervert season near/at the library. He really should go home with all that. I kept walking. I didn't need to see any more.

I've seen and heard worse on the job. Guys exposing themselves to library patrons. This seems to come with the summer time.

I remember last year when a guy exposed himself upstairs, and I asked the young woman if she wanted to call public saftey. She said "no," but I had to insit she call. because she saw the incident, not me. My boss took the conversation over, and afterwards tried to chastise me and my co-worker for not reacting "quick enough." He also insisted that we were laughing at the woman (which was very untrue).

God, he was so out of line. I let him know I did what was required, and I think he was mad at me for doing my job and standing up for myself. THAT is why sometimes my job sucks.

Yesterday, there was some rennovating about the house. I was so sleepey when the people came to work, that I slept through their time here. I got up, and they were ready to work on the windows. Lord, my room looked a mess. I had to scramble and make things look neater, so they could get though and finish the windows. The windows look nice now. LOL :-)

Bought new blinds for the windows. One of them doesn't fit my window. Have to take it back today, and get a larger one. Talk about anti-climatic. LOL

Still working on my porfolio for graduate school. I also want to take more photography classes, so I can expand upon some ideas I have about creativity.

An ex-friend called me recently, but I don't think I want to talk to her anymore. A lot of things have changed between us. Namely the fact that she tried to start a conversation as if nothing has happened between us to make us stop speaking to each other. What does she really want? I don't thin I'll ever ask. I don't want to know.

My life as a Graphic Designer

How many goals are there in life? How can one flourish or fail? I'm thinking of adding some additional skills to my roster. True to form, I'm paninking about how I can fit all of the things I want to fit into my schedule. I know, however that if I allow myself to think about my ideas over a week or two, a solution will emerge.

It's funny, but moment I wrote about my crisis, the panic faded away. Life is good.

Hello,

My home's in the process of being repaired. It's been getting me up early. Boy am I tired. LOL. I just need to get my bearings. I'm also hoping to get myself working on some new theories. I wrote them down, and we'll see what I can work with in the future.

They're cleaning the carpet at work today. It's slippery. I hope not to fall down. I'll stay in one spot. LOL That's it. One spot.

Went to class today. Boy was I sleepy. LOL I got up at 7:00 AM (BTW did I mention that I'm a night person?), and dragged my way to my college.

I need to buy a book for the class. It costs $40.00. Everything's expensive. It'll be orth it though cause I really want to learn Illustrator.

I'm at work. Nothing new. Last night I worked on my HTML portfolio. the work is slow, but steady. Classes start today. My Mpowepoint class is online, so I didn't have to get up early. Tomorrow is my Illustrator class. I do have to be up early for that. LOL. I'm such a night person. How do I get into thes ethings? It's for a good cause, so I shan't whine too much about it.

atched CSI Miami last night. I love that show. Also got to watch some reruns of Law and Order. Stayed up late watching the history of barbarians on History Chanel. It was so goo, and I should have wnet to bed.