Random Thoughts

The things that stay in my head.

Why is it that some guys who listen to hardcore music start crying like bitches when they a) break up with their woman, b) get arrested, c) When their fave soap opera character dies or leaves the show?

When Madonna sings “Like a Virgin,” do we believe her?

Why do grown ass people think they can rock outfits that were made for: a) children, b) models, c) the opposite sex, d) rock stars?

Why do some people from high school turn out to be true losers? Not hard luck people, I mean pariah worthy?

Why when your bills are due, somebody calls to ask to borrow your itty bitty dough?

What’s wrong with singing old negro spirituals at work?

For that matter, those of us who work in the historic district, instead of watching all these white people in period costumes, why not shock the tourist with an authentic slave costume and shackles on hands and feet to guide them?

What’s so wondrous about Wonder Woman? What’s so super about Superman? Why don’t they run for office? Dumbasses.

Why do some people think its ok to watch porn in front of a glass window in a public window?

What the hell is Montel Williams’ show about? I didn’t see any DNA or lied detector tests going on (unless you count Sylvia Brown).

Such is Life

Today I feel the hint of a cold. I started coughing early this morning. Grabbed what I needed to calm me down. Made sure to take my vitamins, and my garlic tablets, and allergy meds. It’s the end of the quarter, so I know its gonna be a pain in the rear soon. I don’t want my upcoming three-day weekend becoming garbage. Don’t wanna stay in bed.

I need to pay some bills soon. I will do that some time this week. I am writing some ideas down, and editing other items.

I was feeling bummy but I am getting over that. I got some good encouragement (thanks to Corrina for turning a positive to a negative).

Bummer

My short story wans't chosen for publication. I should be grieving, but instead I will work on sending it to another publisher. :-)

Getting From Under A Cloud of Funk

That's right, I am getting up from under this funk. I am way to exausted thinking about how miserable I am sometimes. I will take things one day at a time, and work from there.

From Now On, No Looking Back

I'm making a promise to myself; From now on, no looking back at what I could have done or changed. It's all about progression. Absolutely no regrets. Live, Learn, & Grow.

Seaching For Myself

This may seem absolutely stupid, but I haven't found myself yet. Its a maturing thing, a phase maybe. I still am looking for my voice, my soul, and common sense. I like where I am right now, but its just a place I hang my hat. I don't know. I'm missing a lot of things in life. I'd like one of the things I don't have, self-fulfillment, to be real. You can't get that from other people. You can't bottle it. You can't fake it either.

Well, in the midst of doing all my fun things: my writing, my education, my art, I don't feel so completed. I'm simply busy, I am preoccupied with so much I don't think about what I want. I know what I think I want.

Just what the heck do I want? I have no idea, but its high time I found out.

I'd love to find myself. I'd love to know what I am capable of, instead of wishing. I'd love to know that I can do anything I wanted to. I want to know if I fall, I can pick myself up and succeed. We all hear of success stories from others. It gives me hope as to what I can achieve.

I long to be free of constraints. I don't know. Sometimes I see people, meet people, talk about my day, and feeling like I'm still somewhere out there.

I posted earlier that I am persistent, but that's not enough. I want to be that well-rounded man that people admire and become inspired by. I want to believe in myself. believe in love, and be at peace. I think before you have love you gotta love yourself. I am so distracted by everything around me.

All Things Lead Back To Chapter One

Chapter one has been a nice ride, but it so needs to be re-revised. Here is the odd thing. I made several other chapters as well. Its like strands that need to be collected and braided. Damn! I’m rather annoyed.

Who said writing wasn’t a challenge? Its all in my face talking shit and getting me mad. At the same its working my mind like ho on a busy street corner from an episode of “Cops.” I gotta keep writing. I can’t give up. I want EVERY dime of my $500,000.00 2-book contract (or something better).

I am the best at what I do, and that's being persistant. My dreams come second to none.

I made this song not to long ago. Enjoy.

Halo Joe's Roots.m4a
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I Should Go To Bed, But...

I am wide awake. I love staying up late. Gonna pop in a DVD and drift off to La La Land soon.

Remember when I wrote that I was on a new chapter on my novel, I keep finding myself going back to chapter one. Why? I need a feed from the first chapter. I also need a title. This is most vexing. Stories don't have their roots until I can have a good title, because the working title doesn't do shit for me.

Work was a bland day with pros and cons. Supervisor made more changes. I asked about them, and I hate them. He's not a bad guy, but I don't like the changes.

I want to get something new to read this week-end. Maybe I should stop at barnes and noble and pick up some fun magazines. I need something good!!!

I could hunker down and get a subscription to Lynda.com like I said I would and start reading the tutroials on software like I outta. I want to make a new website for myself.

What Happened To Last Night?

I expected the ususal boring fare that is library work. I check out books to people, take returning books, people pay their fines. Whatever.

Then this chick comes in the building screaming about some guy wants to kill her, but she doesn't want him to go to jail. Security calls the police, and the police talk to her. Turns out the chick got hit by her boyfriend, but she feels she should go to jail so he can't hit her anymore.

WTF???!!!!

Students told me she was screaming from a block away. I did lose empathy for her as she was only concerned for the welfare of the man who sent her into hysteria. Bullshit.

After that I had to deal with this huffy student who wanted items on the librarian (who left for the day) could get him. I'm like sorry you have to come tomorrow. He's like can't I call him. That was a big "no." I know if some poor soul called me when I'm not on the clock, they may get no response, or a polite "It will have to wait until I am on the clock" response. It all depends on how I feel.

Adventures in Wi-Fi

Got to use the wi-fi-settings for my Nintendo DS. its been real fun. I love using it. Its got me playing with someone who is from a different area.

Low Profile?

I am going to be doing some more writing, so I am supposed to do less emailing this week-end. I am starving also. I want some chinese. Maybe Generals Tso's chicken or stir fry. Maybe I shoud simply cook me a meal.

Pest control did the spray in the kitchen today. It has that awful smell now that burns my nose. LOL. I need to stay outta the kitchen for a while. No cooking for me today. ROFL

I gotta clean my bedroom. The place is a mess. Let me get to business.

I’m Still Breathing

Writing’s crazy. I have an outpour of thoughts I was blessed to type; however, I need to edit the typing. It’s a crazy, mixed up experience that has me going to a destination unknown. I love the progression I am making.

Finished a second draft of a script for my short story for a comic book. I think we have our own unique, creative property. The story itself is dark, but humorous. My collaborator/artist pal gave me a cool compliment. She said it reads like a good Vertigo comic. I am so on cloud nine from that compliment.

I have a new script to work on. It’s a sci-fi adventure series I hope to type sometime this weekend. I hand wrote 13 pages of the story. I also rewrote some of the dialogue. I need to get to type it. It can become a full first draft for chapter one. It’s got four parts. I hope it l get it done soon.

I need to list my ideas as well. Put them on a schedule.

Here'sTo Hoping...

...That today will be cool. Otherwise I can't wait for the week-end.

Today Is Like...Cool

I'm having a mellow moment. Made some sweet tea. Its so good. Can't have too much, its potent.

Blew my grocery budget I went over by $36.00 which is not bad since I restocked my fridge and cubbards. I was thinking of buying pizza, but changed that plan. I spent too much money already.

I did make a couple of steaks that melted in my mouth, that was as good as I can make it. I sauteed mushrooms, red onions, red and green bell peppers with it. OMG I love cooking for myself.

Made spareribs for the next few days. They are good and fresh. The meat falls off the bone. I have outdid myself. I will make burgers at the end of the week or week-end. After that its chicken.

I bought a lot of mixed vegatables. They were sauteed in butter. So good.

My only complaint was that the mixed vegies was like almost all carrots. What was up with that. The package said mixed, not 95% carrots.

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind. You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life. Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling. And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

This test is more telling than I imagined. Someone in my writng class suggested that I go into television writing. Such is life.

I Am Expresso!!!!

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

I stole this from Dorian's blog. I love the results.

Stacy's Dreams

These are some of my goals. I dream of this day, and pray to God it happens for me.

1. My own house: Not renting. No more apartments. My own home, with lots of space.

2. All my bills paid on time.

3. A solid retirement plan. I have a retirement plan, but I want to improve on that.

4. Money to spend, if I so choose without having to take from my bills.

Goodbye Teen Titans

I was on the fence about this title, but now I feel like I’m gonna give it up for good. This is sad to me, because this title, and me we have a history. Also, I wanted to give new artist Tony Daniel a chance. His work is good, I do miss Mike McKone as the artist, but hell, he’s off the title and I dealt with it.

I should be surprised, but I’m not. I am disappointed, because I paid to read this damn comic.

I want to like this title, I really do, but after a few moths of some very bland stories, I want to walk away, and I will.

Quite frankly, the stories seem overly simple, and boring. I feel so uninterested in any of the characters. BTW please let Cyborg get his own mini-series at least. He’s the senior in the title, and nobody seems to do him justice.

I can say I didn’t like the Titans Massacre that happened. I don’t know. Evil Superboy is rather bland himself, and his power level is oddly flexible. Yes he’s psychotic, but boring. (NOTE: A once noble and good Superboy from another world became psychotic, and either killed, maimed or crippled several reserve members of the Titans while somehow unable to do much damage to the real Superboy. -I didn’t make that up)

I admit I have some seen some interesting plotlines. Wonder Girl’s power up by Ares was fascinating, as was Jericho’s return, and where he’s been hiding. Raven’s return was cool. Brother Blood was semi-interesting.

I am so done with this title. Maybe somebody will let me know how the title is doing. I may pick it up then.

I am very disappointed because I love writer Geoff John’s JSA series. I have a great time reading it. What the hell happened? Oh, Infinite Crisis happened (don’t get me started on that story-ok I will do it tomorrow).

Bye-bye Titans. I might miss ya… Maybe.

Busy…In A Good Way

Wow, I didn’t expect my writing to blossom in the way it has. It’s been a pleasant, thrilling ride. I am very thankful to have my creativity working for me. It is one of my strongest assets.

I am, as last post stated, collaborating. While working with my friend, I decided to work on a script I held off on. I hand wrote 13 pages, but left it alone, thinking I didn’t have any direction. Now I tell myself, “just type out a few pages, and see how I can adjust and correct the draft.” I am very excited about this prospect.
The novel is still going. I am still writing it. I love building one the characters and situations. Is shaping up to have many gothic horror elements that I did not anticipate. I love this direction.

I have another short story I need to shape up, because when I reread it, I was into it like, “I wrote this?” LOL It’s a college story about living, falling in love, and having a friend who is a campus ho. I have got to complete this.

I have at least four more short stories that need my attention, and one story that keeps expanding itself. Don’t ask. All I can tell you there is more to the story and its not short, but involved. Call it a story centers on fine arts and a possible relationship.

I have some new ideas. Mainly some spanking new titles. If I have a title, I have a story. These will be placed on the backburner for the moment.

There are more ideas, but these are relegated to “hold.” I will likely scribble notes in my notepad. I am very excited. Soon I hope to write I got published!!! I want that six figure book deal. ROFL

P.S. My blog is something I LOVE writing. I hope to keep it going. Its my best non-fiction work.

Higest Paid Woman InTV

I so thought it was Oprah, but its not...

It's Judge Judy. I found an articl on Wikipedia. You can read it here.

Blah Day

I have a splitting headache. I think I am having a caffeine withdrawal. No lattes for days on end. Now my head hurts. I don’t even have any cola in my house to calm my nerves. Its been water, Sprite, or Kool-Aid.

Such is life I promised myself that I would limit my spending, and I did. I never thought it would hurt me this way though.

For lunch I had more meatloaf and some steamed vegetables.

Worked on my collaboration with my friend. I got the first draft of the script out. She should look it over in a couple of days and get back to me with feedback.

Stayed up late last night. Don’t know what that was. I know I should have been out of energy and ready to sleep, instead I was bright eyed and bushy tailed.

Great Day For Me

Tonight is mellow. It feels great. I worked more on writing. I am glad I wore something. I was going to be totally lazy but I told myself at least two pages, I did four. They need revising, but part of writing is revising. So long as I keep up the work, I will be fine.

Waiting for Ghost In the Shell. Decided to watch “Leviathan.” “Predator” and “Robocop 2” are on as well. After that its Van Helsing (DVD) and I am off to dreamland.

Made a meatloaf. It was good. I punked out and made french fries instead of mixed vegetables. LOL It was all good with ketchup on it.

Quiet Week-End

How I love to loaf about on a day that has me not having to wake early. I will work on my novel. I promised myself at least two more pages this week.

Not much going on this week on forums. Looks like I'm not the only one online. LOL Peeps doing other things.

Here's to all not being overworked!!!

Snoop Dog, Author

The title's the link to a very brief article, but interesting.

Plagarism Rears Its Ugly Head II

Here is the final result of this fiasco, as mentioned earlier. Check out the amount of the book deal, $500,000, AND optioned by Dreamworks studios before the scandal. The link is in the title.

For the record, I am speaking about author, Kaavya Viswanathan, who wrote, "How Opal Mehta Got Kissed, Got Wild, and Got a Life."

Imagine, a half million bucks to work with. I'd be out of debt and smiling all the way to the bank. LOL I would have some great vacations too. All fuel for my stories. There are some legal issues here too. The author has breached her contract.

I found another article. It can be viewed here.

I find this fascinating for a few reasons. The first, being that I have always wanted to be a fiction author, second, I'm working on my own novel, and came across this news.

Wikipedia breaks it down like a pro. Damn the link is here.

Today Is Like...

I am awake, and I made myself some breakfast. Eggs and sausage. I so love a good morning. I love a full stomach. I gotta get to my writngs. I love being busy.

So today is good.

Last night was ok. Didn't have a stuffy day at work. No drama. Someone did lose a nice iPod mini. As expensive as those things are, I hoped they would call back last night. No calls to speak of. LOL I remember when someone left their laptop in the library on purpose. She called back a few days later saying I went out with my friends and left it there. She said it so casually. I was totally unemapthetic to her.

Potential Is Hidden Or Unnoticed

I kept wondering why I wasn’t on point with a few things, and then I realized I was busy. I created some new songs, and the jazz tune is bugging me like mad, because its missing a piece to it. Damn puzzle. I love a good challenge. I created two additional songs. One of them, I want to remix, like I was R. Kelly or something (minus the bad rep with under aged chicks-Don’t call me a damn “pied piper” of anything). This brings my total to 7 songs, 5 finished.

Research has pulled me to a new angle. I began looking up comedies, and farces. Expect something eclectic and offbeat from my mind. I see the human condition as my playground as far as topic. I seem to be breaking through my own doubts (progress is a true Godsend).

Came up with ideas for other novels. I don’t know if they are short stories or novellas, or what. I know they need to be put to paper.

Have my first comic book collaboration with a friend/classmate. She’s in sequential art, me, graphic design. We’re going to do something that’s along the lines of my thoughts: dark, moody, and on the scary side. I am so a Vertigo-minded writer, when I need be.

Working on a comedy-based hero story as well. If I can create a solid proposal, I can look for more collaborators.

Plagarism Rears Its Ugly Head.

Not for me, but for a published author. Read the article for yourself. The title contains a link.

First Day of The Month

Whoa, its the start of May. I hope most of the pollen is done. It hurts so much when the pollen is everywhere.

Work was ok last night. I noticed that many don't like to put dates on timesheets. I need dates on these theings. people act like that's so hard. I will send everyone an email, that lets them know to put the date you work or I will not submit your timesheet.

There is some drama about shipments. People confusing shit. I was emailed asked to ship an item that appears to already be shipped. WTF!!! I can't be emailed and told sombody else shipped it?

More work drama, but not involving me. Security guard and a staff member had a little conflict. I am so staying out of that. ROFL