Thursday, Summed up, So Far

Its been a harrowing week. I am still reeling from the prices I paid for my car's repair.

I am upset because yesterday I fixed my lunch at the last moment, and for some reason, I left the past on the stove until i got back from work. I was oblivious to its prescence, until I went to the fridge to see what was there to cook. To my horror I realized then that the pot was still on the stove. I am so pissed with myself. The lesson is to not fix my lunch at the last moment, then i will have time to think about what I am doing.

Co-worker had her last day at work. We wanted to throw her a party, but the powers that be nixed that idea F-A-S-T. I was like damn, the Flash doesn't move faster than that "no" came though. Whatever. We decided to go to the local icecream shop and have a cool treat. I bought what was cheap. One scoop of IC for me. I am happy my co-worker is leaving on a good note.

Cari showed me the page she was working on today for our comic. All I can tell you is I can't wait to show her art to everyone. She's working on completing the work. Her favorite character is Seph. Mine is Gabriel (the main character). She is really talented, so I would love to see the finished project. Much love for the supertalented Cari (peep her page, y'all).

Spoke with a good friend yesterday, and I told her we both are gonna rise above all that constrains us. Beleive that.

Control

Needless to say I am in control.

Control of my life, my happiness, my well-being. My soul. My art. My name. My integrity. It’s time I start using my abilities to their utmost potential.

I AM the BOSS of ME.

I will break free of all things that try to constrain me.

I am not a stereotype or a statistic.

Culture is meant to uplift.

There is a reason I wrote this blog, and that was to stop apologizing for all the things that happen in my life.

Tomorrow's Breakfast...

French toast and sausage. :-)

I want something sweet, and something spicy on the side. :-)

Better clean the frying pan proper (I need to buy a smaller frying pan BTW).

Good Ideas on the Way

Cari asked me if I would write more for our story. To get focused on writing more stories, as we will be working on six isses of the story. I came up with the idea for the first issue. Its an urban tragedy. Its also a little scary. Its hard to write and envision, but I have a strong feeling that its going to be a wealthy challenge to work on. I love good writing challenges.

I suppose its time to think of the next issue ideas.

Teaser Art

The art is done by Cari, who is my collaborator on our comic book, has sent me a lovely sketch of the three main characters. Cari's supertalented and dedicated. She has her own web comic. I will add a link to my link section soon. If you click the title, it will take you to her site. :-)

I am so stoked aboput our collaboration. For those who do read my blog, enjoy the image.

Thanks Readers

Here is something I did not know. Many people are reading my blog. Well, I do have a link in my sig for CBR forums. I never thought about it. People have taken a peek in, and some have left comments, which helps. It simply felt good for a change to notice that people were reading my blog and enjoying it.

Thanks readers. You make me smile.

Dinner is Served

On tonight's menu: fettuccini with spicy Italian sausage & onions in alfredo sauce. Tired to make the sauce richer by adding milk (I didn't have any cream), and some butter. I spiced it up with Italian seasoning, cayenne pepper (a small amount), no salt (I put enough on the pasta). I tasted it, and its sooo good. LOL

I made some iced sweet tea with fresh lemon and lime. I will make some steamed broccoli to go on the side.

I'm eating good tonight. :-)

Uggh!

Took my car to the dealership for its 55,000 mile check up. I needed to have my feul gagechecked as it stayed stuck at full. Little did I know the cost. it went to 500. I swear, if I didn't come prepared my blood pressure would have gone up. I was so bothered by it, I didn't eat until later thatg day. This meant that had little money to do much with. I went to the grocery store, and restocked my food suplies. I paid my phone bill, gassed my car, and now am home. I have a few more errands I need to complete. Like I said, UGH! I am so upset about this.

However, life goes on!!!! I will take care of this. :-)

Whoah

LOL I feel tired. Maybe I need to get more sleep...

Collaboration is still going strong. We pooled some ideas tother to extend the life of our creation... Jotted down notes, and came up with some interesting developments. I have noticed by experience that too many notes does not a story make. Time to write it out, and see how it really fits, instead of guessing.

Listening to Toni Braxton's "He Wasn't Man Enough For Me." Killer song.

I Am So Buzzed!!!!

OMG I have spent too much money. I've totally blown my budget. Last two weeks I went to work early, and that meant that I had to pay for parking. I spent a total of $52.00 in two weeks on parking alone. I am so upset about this. I normaly pay $6.00 every two weeks. Well, there went my food budget.

I have great news. We, my collaborator and I, got an editor to look at our story. The editor wants to see artwork for the story, so I am very excited!!!! To break down our parts, I wrote, and she is drawing. This is a cool and exciting new prospect. I have wanted to do some publishing for some time now. This may be the ticket.

One positive aspect of or collaboration is that I was sternly confidant I can create and write a great story. She was equaly confidant that she can draw at a professional level. She is as excited as I am. Excitemt leads to enthusiam. Enthusiam makes a project shine.

Suffice to say I am so buzzed about this.

Good Day

It’s a good day. I did some more online tutorials. The histogram palette is really important. Its necessary in several of the tutorials, and since I am remembering it and its use, so I know I am learning. Correcting images color and contrasts, and few new tricks are in my notepad.

Drank one bottle of water today. Working on the second. Hope to get a third by the end of the night.

Remember Monica’s song “So Gone?” I was listening to it. Forgot about the song, but I loved hearing it. ☺

A Self Picture

Mad Play With iTunes

I'm having some good songs on my iTunes. Its all good. I needed a feelgood moment that isn't spoiled by any negative thoughts.

Give Me The Night

Why is it that I feel better when night comes around? All day I can feel blah, but at night I want to be active. I swear i've turned into a cat.

Just don't give me milk (lactose intolerant), or catnip. LOL

Mellowing With the Night

I may pop in a movie, get a glass of Bacardi, and enjoy the rest of the night. I want things to be cool, and sweet, to cap off my day off. Tomorrow its back to work and all the fun things that happen at the start of the quarter. As the work-study co-ordinator, I hire all the work-study students. Needless to say I have to interview and train them.

That's tomorrow though. :-)

Tonight is anything I need it to be.

Novel Progression VI

I can now describe what my novel is about. I have tried many definitions, but I wanted to boil it down to one good sentence. My novel is a multigenerational family drama that centers around the great grandson whose birth and paternity is not only questioned, but brings all of the family scandals and secrets to light.

Its a start right?

I'm Out of Soda

I drank the last root beer. I suppose I could drink water. If I drink at least three bottles, I will think about going to the nearby Walgreens and picking up a couple of root beers.

Low Class Clarification

I know a couple of posts ago I mentioned low class. I meant more or less my financial staus. I think it is easy to lure one's self into a false belief that you can alwys "rob Peter to pay Paul" situation. Living paycheck to paycheck sucks rotten dinosaur eggs. I am so gonna break free of all things that constrain me.

Blah Becomming Better

I have been feeling blah for some time now. I have let some of the dramas going on at work affect me adversely, and also I have been running into ups and downs with classes, and bills. I am putting my finances on the right track with budgeting. I am very happy with the results.

I am writing a proposal on the direction I need my classes to move towards. I am mildly frustrated by the lack of time I have had for classes. I allowed outside events to detract me from what I wanted. This is why I came to Savannah. I am also cut off from my family. I needed my space from them, and now I have it. I got to get back and see them soon. It may be what I need.

The online tutorials I am taking in software is going slow, but since I don’t have much to do this week-end, I can play catch up. It won’t be so bad. I have so far learned so many cool new things about using Photoshop that I didn’t know. I want to hop over to Illustrator next and see what I can pick up as well.

My novel is still in the works. I handwrite a lot of things that I need to type. I have come up with some ideas that are downright scary. The things I have done to my lead character. He needs it though. If he doesn’t go through anything, I am not writing much.

So Bored/The Changes I Am Going Through

I am so bored. Bored with the same old humdrum beat of the way things form. I got things to do, places to go, dreams to catch. I found myself, not to long ago, wondering about how many times have I fallen into the same rut.

I'm a good person, I treat peeps with kindness, life is ok. I don't want to be ok. I don't want to be ashamed of my own ambitions. I don't want to worry if I ruffle other's feathers by not apologizing for going for my goals. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck, and I don't want to be poor. I am poor. I'm very low class. I don 't know everything, and I am very naively optimistic about the world. In a way I am still a child. It's been a "dumb but happy" poor. A follow the masses type of poor. Work for a long time and make nothing.

I want to follow my ambitions, and let others be upset if my quest for my own space and time is high. Why am I holding myself back?

I WILL be free of all things that try to constrain me. That is a promise.

Chilling

I feel like relaxing and that's what I'm gonna do. Oh, I wrote more. I like when I do that. It makes relaxing feel a little better.

Over the Hump

Life is great. I got over all my work blues. I realized that the petty people were so transparent and not even worthy of an ounce of annoyance on my part. The moment I thought like this, I felt a weight lift from me. Call it a maturing phase. Thank God, it was truly a dead burden.

I said I hadn't found me, but I knew I was bound to chaos, and I wanted to be free of it. I am on my way. :-)

Now to work on all the cool things I want to. A burden has lifted. Thank God a million times!!!!

Super Bad Ghetto Power!!!!

So I go to work, and ask about getting some business cards. As the coordinator for all work studies, I thought I should get some cards to hand to students for contact information. Imagine my surprise when I found myself told that Circ desk assistants can't have cards, because we "don't fit the parameters" for having cards. All Circ staff members need cards. We all handle important duties, and our info is nowhere to be found. I'm supposed to write it on a piece of paper, and possibly copy it and distribute it?

Super Bad Ghetto Power!!!!

What I am told by action is "Stacy you do vital work and hire students, and sign/process their timesheets for multiple departments, but you don't warrant a business card the college provides other department members." WTH???

We went to our supervisor and told him that we needed business cards. He will go to his super and discuss the matter with him.

Drawing

I decided to pick up the pencinls and sketchbook, and get my drawing up to speed. I need to draw something, and keep up the pratice.

I will design some characters I want to use for a comic book ideas/series.

I should have done this a while ago, but its time I put to of my loves (writing and drawing) together. Somewhere down the line I can add music to the formula.

I need to shave, but I will do that later. So many things to do. better go get something to eat first, and keep up my strength.

Break Out Your Writing Tools

I am in the midst of editing my novel. I am working hard to expand on my thoughts, elaborate on passages, (I have to show and not tell), and typing out my handwritten ideas.

A worthy challenge.