Disconnected

Been working on my scripts for my "Writing for Comics" class, and I've been failing at the latest story.  My plot is rather boring, and I am so wrapped up in it being acceptable, and worried about keeping my "A" average that I've missed the boat all together.  I've been so preoccupied with getting this story completed that I've stressed myself.  I do hope I can turn this plot around.  After a third draft of my story I feel disconnected.  It's not me writing.  Its me trying to please others.  Why am I backing down from a challenge?    Why am I hiding myself and talent.  I should shine everyday, not somedays. 

I need to be honest with myself.  I have a twisted mind.  Now I'm chaste all of a sudden, like I turned myself into a writing virgin.   My spelling's gotten worse, I feel distracted, and my voice up and left the room.   What happened to me?  Who reflowered me? 

Needless to say I've got to get my third draft, look it over, and make it read like a "Stacy" story or I cannot claim to be writing at all:  I'm just dablling, playing writer.   That can't happen.  I'm far better than that, and I know I have  the chops.  

The Warm Up

I have to keep writing.  I have this paper due and its twelve to fifteen pages.  Needless to say I need to get off my duff and put the time and energy into serving up this paper proper.  The way to start is to write.  I need to put at least five sentences into this entry, and more if possible.   I hope to post several warm ups.  yeah they're filler, but they are writings. 

The music playlist is very ecletic today.    Everything from Mariah Carey's "Can't Let Go," to Meshelle N'Degeocello's "Bitter."  It drowns out the outside world some, allowing me to focus on the task onhand.  

Whatever It Takes

I promised myself that I would be more proactive in the New Year.   I went for things I wanted in 2008, but like a relationship, you have to do a lot to win over your woman, but you have to do a hell of a lot more to keep her. 

In other words it takes a lot to be with someone you love, and if you’re committed and passionate, you will make things work.

I have a lot I am ambitious about, and I refuse to feel shamed for wanting more out of life.   It’s a sly ambition.  I never thought to verbalize what I want in this world.  I never thought to put more effort into my goals.

So I say to all who read this that I’m will to do whatever it takes to succeed and maintain success.   I’m not interested in settling for whatever.  If I give you a story, it needs to curl your toes, tingle your spine, or touch your heart.   I’m not interested if I can’t do something with my craft.
    

If I’m working, you need the best damn service you can have.  If I have an opinion, you need to know what I’m thinking, without it getting destructive.

I can do anything I want to.  My other resolution should be to be rid of the self-doubt that nags me.  

Naked in 2009

I should post more.  This blog is naked in 2009.  I said I wanted to challenge myself, so I need to challenge myself to keep updating my blog.   

Cinema Studies

I am working on my research paper for my class.  It's on the movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall.  It's an offbeat comedy, and a littly odd to categorize.   Is it a Judd Apatow comedy? Is it a screwball comedy?  Is it a romantic comedy?  If its an Apatow, then it's almost a genre by itself.  If it's the latter two, then it's roots trace back to old Hollywood films.    I got my work cut out for me.