Thanks Kat.

This is seriously funny!

More SNL Spoofing.

Howling At The Moon

Just getting my ideas on paper, and the questions that I need to ask and answer.  Without these notes I fear I may fail to get my act together on my screenplay.  I can see some weighty elements coming in.  I wonder if the tone of the story will change.  I've got a little bit of the ideas known.   I'm going to type my notes out because sometimes typing them and looking at them gives me the clarity I need to get my ish together.  I have a protagonist, and I have to figure out his wants , needs, and what's at stake.   Busy, busy, busy.

P.S.  I have some references to track down and read. 

Today

I've been tired, but I digress.  Class have started.  The weather has cooled down some.  Thank God.  The heat is overwhelming sometimes.  Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna cook myself walking down the street.  Zyrtec will really work and knock you out.  Classes are going well, but I am nervous.  I still have a pitch to put together, but nothing will gell unless I write it out (duh).   Gonna have oatmeal for brunch.  I'm not playing.  :-) 

Say What: The B-Word

Yes it's time for the B word in my life.  A budget is near.  A brother gots to put some things in persepctive before he finds that he has nothing to show for his hard work.   A budget will helm me be a better person, and know that i can manage my life with clarity, and not at a whim.  Sometimes I feel I'm at the mercty of chance, when i really am in control.  

SNL Opener: This Made Me Laugh!

Yes Ma'am

My Momma told me I had to add a vegetable to my dinner when I told her I was having fried chicken, mac & cheese, and baked potatoes.   LOL  I agreed to add some brocholi to the menu. 

Solange- Sandcastle Disco [OFFICIAL Full Length Music Video]

I like this song. Very happy and breezy. The video is quite playful too.

Thoughts

Have you ever loved yourself enough to make the changes necessary to be successful in your life?   Looked yourself in the mirror and know if you needed to make changes, you simply went about them?  You didn't fuss or complain, you knew what had to be done and took the steps.  I mean get into the trenches and make the hard  decisions for better or worse.   Not out of fear, you see, but out of unconditional love for yourself, and for your own well-being.   Ever think of yourself as more than who you are now,  and you desire to breakthrough  your constraints? 

Don't Blow It Man

I have this wonderful chance to make myself over.  Truly take care of business and I need this chance so bad that I can taste it.  All I can say to myself is "don't blow it."  I don't know where to begin, but I am afraid of blowing it.   So the question that comes to mind as I type this, "just what in the world do I need and want to be a better man?” I feel like I'm gonna fail at helping myself.   The truth is no one can free me but me.   Maybe I should take this one day at a time.

Let It Go

I feel like I'm running on fumes, cause the needle been locked on E a while ago.  Been wandering and wondering around like a lost traveler on a high foggy day.  Let me explain further: Sometimes I simply don't feel like being sensible, and love to have my idiotic moments come to the forefront.

I am so guarded and controlled that I feel like I need some Metamucil for my persona.  Sometimes I don't want to be serious, and so put together like I know everything, and shit's under control.  Sometimes I go spiraling, and I don't have a clue as to how the hell I got there.  Sometimes I get so sensitive and self-conscious that there is rain in the day, and no bliss.

I gotta let go, and take the dive.   Accept that there is risk, loss and gain.  Accept that I can build a better life for myself.   It’s not about my craft or my art.  It’s about me being at peace within myself.  It’s about me releasing all the pains, mistakes, and woes.    I’ve been wrong before.  I’ll be wrong again.  I’ll also be right, and successful, but I have to fortify myself with some spiritual resolve.  

Back In The Saddle

Have to write a statement of purpose for Cinema Studies MA program. I bit nervous, but at the same time feeling I can write something worth reading.   Ever since the dramatic writing department canned my entry, I've wondered about the content of my writing.  It used to be negative reactions and thoughts, but now it's about "do people get what I am writing."

It all leads to the fact that I may not have been the kind of writer the dept was looking for.   I didn't fit a certain mold, if you will.  Never give up though is my motto.  I'm tired of feeling defeated before I get started.    So  I may not be in the dramatic writing department, but the dream of screenwriting lives on in me.  I may write papers on fils, but I will have my concertation in screenwriting.  It just goes to show you that when one door closes another shall open for you.  

Playing With Fire

So I know this chick, and we are so cool together. I found myself thinking about her when I'm not busy with my work, class, and projects. What the hell? This doesn't happen to me every day. When did I start catching something? That ish better not be some feelings I'm catching either. Ok that's the sweet part. What's bitter is that I can clearly see this chica is not going in the same direction I am going. People always tell you who they are, and I can't ignore what I hear and see. Don't want to take the risk because this is playing with fire. Why go down in flames when I already know how the story's going to end? 

As a good friend always says, "keep it moving." That's no lie.   Save those feelings for someone else.  

Cleaing Fool

Nowhere done with the cleaning and I feel tired.  Hauled several bags of trash to the dumpster.  Before I send anything else there I would like to see the trash picked up.  That way I can at least  feel I am not adding to the current pile like I have.   I have one big box left that I am going through, and let me tell you it is insane the way I held on to some of this stuff.  I found a shirt and towel at the bottom of the box.  I've been wondering where they were.  

Desiring to have a soda (Coke mainly), so I will head to the store and purchase a six pack.  I need to purchase some quarters as well so I can wash some clothes, but that won't happen until next weekend.  

P.S.  The bedroom needs vacuuming again.  

The Not So Great Clean Up

So much junk lives in my apartment.  It gets throw it away without too much thought about it.  it's rather exhausing.  I filled a garbage bag with a bunch shreded crap.  Again, I ask myself why I horde this mess.  it was better off being thrown out on the first day.  Like a friend suggested, I should take it and shred it the first day it inters my place.   I think I've done enough for the day through.  

Also, I didn't forget to water my plants, which is Saturday's ritual. 

Clean This Frackin' Apartment

Over the weekend I decided to throw out all of the useless papers in my bedroom.   I threw out two bags worth of crap, and I was shocked by that.  My mind is like "why do I horde this stuff?"  It had to go.   Letting it go felt good.  I vacuumed as well.  The dust content was over the edge.  I was so embarrassed.  I lived like this.  The floor is clean now.  

Last night I cleaned out the fridge, which needs a good scrub down, but I was happy getting the shelves to not look stained.    It truly was a long time coming.  The LR looks like garbage, and I havve a LOT of paper to throw away still, but that's for the weekend.    There is no old food in my fridge, which I like as well.   Talk about embarrassed.  I am the bachelor.  

Oh Yeah!

I got a B in my American Moderns class.   I was rather tired with the whole adventure, but I'm glad I went through with it, and saw it through the end.   I did feel stressed, and frustrated, but it worked itself out.  Praise the Lord.   Now I don't have to look back at all with any regrets.  

Hurricane Alert

There's a hurricane out there that may hit Savannah, GA or SC, so I am twice worried for me and my fam.   If you're out there, please pray that we remain safe.  I'm upset, nervous, and feeling rather alone not that I am, but that's how I feel.   I will keep alert for things like changes in the weather, and I do pray the storm doesn't hit.