Chillaxing

IU found I needed to give my mind a rest, but while I was stuck in a video game world, I didn't feel like I was resting. It sounds silly, as I don't mind getting lost in games from time to time, BUT I wasn't writing, and I always feel like writing gets the short change for the bulk of the day, which annoys the heck outta me.  I know I can write more if I do what needs to be done, and stop being a fool about what's important to me.

Perhaps writing isn't important. Perhaps it's too painful and difficult for me to perceive and master.  perhaps I don't have what it takes to be a good enough person to comprehend all the damn nuances that writing can bring to my life. I'd then say that I'm a real hot mess who has never taken himself serious enough to take control of things I need to take control of.  It's too easy to surrender to despair.  It's too easy to give up and walk away. It's certainly too easy to get lost in games and forget that I should be doing more.

This is not to deny myself any gaming time. For as long as I have interest in games, I will continue to play them.  I need some structure in my activities, cause me time can be games, reading, watching movies/TV shows, writing, more writing, and keeping up with them all. In fact, I should always be writing, and daily. Who cares if it isn't slick or polished.

Anywho, since I pulled away from the game room, I can sit with my laptop and start with the blog post as a my warm-up. The night shall be better.  Life shall be richer. A LOT of things are looking up and better.