Been laying low from writing, like I can't do it, which is a HUGE mistake. If there's anything that I do well, it's creativity, and I've put off my creativity for some time now. Been feeling low, but now that reason's entered my mind again, it's time to handle my biz and make do with what I have in front of me, and getting over myself (again). I need to get my head back in the game, cause the truth is only I can do what needs to be done for my welfare. If it means tracking down job leads, writing, hell, singing telegrams, I gotta do what needs to be done to make living worth a damn.
Job hunting did yield some fruit from the vine, but I'm keeping this under my hat until it pans out completely. You will hear me sing if it works out. I'm a leave it be because it's something that's out of my hands. I trust in my skills and persona, and that's all one can do. No more doubt on this part. Getting things done is the priority.
Writing hasn't been a pain, it's just that I've been real lazy and loving the laziness. I could and should do better for myself. Granted I felt a bit low on some days, and I do take pen to paper, but I know I need to do more. I seem to be distracting myself with goofing off, gaming, and all the freedoms I didn't have. Well this can't keep going. Where does the creativity go if I don't use it? It seems like a waste of energy, so I best get myself in gear.
I have to be honest, this page was two paragraphs, and I felt like it wasn't good enough to post. It felt weak, like I wasn't putting effort into the mix. That's changed, and now I feel better about writing this without wondering what the hell was wrong with me. Sometimes inspiration, procrastination, and creativity get wrapped up into one for me. Need to keep writing. I'm a mess.